Hi Alison…first of all, be at peace.  Nothing is wrong with you or your life.  Feels to me that you are just being nudged to let go of another layer of mental constructs that no longer serve you.

So take a deep breath and know that ALL IS WELL and that there is no way to mess this up!

Having said that, and before we enter into the depths, let me ask a pertinent question…

You say:

I have a lot to be grateful for, a wonderful husband and family and good work prospects, but just can’t seem to get my life together! I need to take responsibility for the situation and have many self help tools for support, but just can’t get to grips with what’s happening after weeks of trying!

I ask: What would happen if you let your life fall apart?