Hi Kimberly, sorry you are feeling so unwell 🙁
The energies have definitely increased in intensity and are forcing us to really face every inch within us that is in need of resolve as we move beyond what we have previously known and accepted. This, in turn, is resulting in the deepest purging, THE absolute breakdown of our old realities and much of this is being precipitated by all the celestial activity this month.
It can definitely feel like death but ultimately it will reveal a new self and a breakthrough into a whole new world. I am told that the equinox/solar eclipse is a major ending point that will enable us to release our past so completely, however at the moment it certainly still feels like we are still in breakdown mode.
That said, I am a bit unclear as to what you are asking…can you clarify?